12-24-2009

When all is said and done, you’re a part of me, that’s the way it was meant to be, people are brought together for a reason, everything happens for a reason, I believe the reason you and me were brought together was cause we complete each other, we fill in each others missing spaces, the empty holes, the blind spots, with love, and if someday god decided to tear us apart, I trust that there is a reason, cause if there’s a reason for love, there’s a reason for life beyond it.

we just wernt meant for each other, i had to cut myself off from you to realize it.

i look forward

Out of all the things I could do with you I look forward to sleeping with you the most. Not having sex but more than that – just sleeping in the same bed, you holding me in your arms and me falling asleep on your chest and waking up with you right next to me. That’s what I want. That’s what I look forward to.

and today you told me i was the first thing you thought about this morning. and you sent me a photo of the sun rise over a palm tree, it was one of the most beautiful things id ever seen. and i felt special because for once i was somebody's someone when they woke up. and i want you to know you were mine.

pain and avoidance

i woke up this morning and wanted to cry my eyes out. i played a song that made my mind spin and every thought of sadness awake in my body. there was pain in my stomach and i had to piss but avoided leaving my bed.

you came back.

this is the way you left me, i’m not pretending, no hope, no love, no glory, no happy ending.
this is the way that we loved, like it’s forever, then live the rest of our lives, but not together.


When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Don`t try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring for you, coming to see you, or staying attached to you. When people can walk away, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.


Being lonely, being alone, for many people sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn’t honor the person you are is worse.


I wasn’t falling for you, I was falling for who I thought you were. I built you up way too high, and now it’s time for you to come down off that pedestal. I’ve seen who you truly are.

I wasn’t falling for you, I was falling for who I thought you were. I built you up way too high, and now it’s time for you to come down off that pedestal. I’ve seen who you truly are.

Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you.

i miss the seconds between our kisses.. when we looked at each other and smiled

There’s so much I wish for, but most of all, I wish you were here. It’s strange, but before I met you, I couldn’t remember the last time that I cried. Now, it seems that tears come easily to me… but you have a way of making my sorrows seem worthwhile, of explaining things in a way that lessens my ache. You are a treasure, a gift, and when we’re together again, I intend to hold you until my arms are weak, and I can do it no longer. My thoughts of you are sometimes the only things that keep me going.



You’re everything I’ve wanted. You’re beautiful. You’re reckless. And a little sad. You know it’s the sadness that got me right from the start. I wanted to make it go away, and for a time I thought I had. It’s pretty stupid, huh? You like the sadness. You cling to it, and in the end, it will be all you have.