i miss my best friend.

hopefully ill have some money next week so i can drive to chicago to see kelly. i miss her.
possibly moving there for the summer too if i can find a place to live for cheep.

im sick of this town already.


tomorrow going to a show with courtney. and getting my hair done in the morning.
i cant wait..

you're my best friend.

and i just want somebody who will fight for me,
as hard as you fight for her.

fun filled evening.

and im heading out to lansing tonight to celebrate the birth of my dear friend jordan.
i hope tonight is fun and not full of drama..




"its like love that way; once you arrive, once you are firmly aground in a love, you begin to see that it has cracks and rough edges and dirty spots, pockets of toxins, less privacy, maybe, than what you had imagined. but if you are willing to remember the initial distant beauty of a love or a daydream, and if you are willing to live in that beauty up close even with all its imperfections... then the dream is yours to have."
- off the map



The words don’t flow so simply through my teeth like they stream through my brain. Thoughts of my life seem so much more simplistic in my dreams than in reality, and benieth my skin are bones and organs that function in ways that are not voluntary, they move on their own in order to keep me alive, and I find that the most remarkable thing about life.
-me

shes got talent.

going to my sisiters middle school talent show.. how fun right..

im also still sick which sucks. now its an ear infection and strep throat.

ugh

just another way to make my life less private.

made a twitter today. haha

follow me.

twitter.com/MadisonFromMI

im not sure where we belong.

and after its all done and said she loves you more than life it self.
you're lucky to still have her love considering everything you've done.
i cant look at you like i use too knowing just all that you did.
the words you say these days i want more than anything to believe
but you were never an honest person, what makes me think you've changed.
please just show me you've changed so i can trust you again.
and i hope you dont kill her inside with any more lies.
she deserves better than you.



"I usually don't like thinking about the future. I mean, let's face it, you can't predict what's going to happen. But sometimes, the thing you didn't expect is what you really wanted after all. Maybe the best thing to do is just stop trying to figure out where your going, and enjoy where your at."

I'm done getting my hopes up.
everyone just lets me down.
i want to find happiness in the shit hole of a state.
but all thats here is a boy who broke my hart
and a few friends that will forget me in 10 years.

maybe ill soon be rich and wont have to stay here.
but for now it looks like my parents house is were ill live.
this isnt fun for me. i wouldnt be fun for anyone.