Monday, May 25, 2009

i felt inspired.

Even now, all possible feelings do not yet exist, there are still those that lie beyond our capacity and our imagination. From time to time, when a piece of music no one has ever written or a painting no one has ever painted, or something else impossible to predict, fathom or yet describe takes place, a new feeling enters the world. And then, for the millionth time in the history of feeling, the heart surges and absorbs the impact.
- The History of Love

I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone. I take walks. I work until I’m tried. I watch the wind play with the trash that’s been under the snow all winter. Everything seems simple until you think about it.
and only after a short while you made me intolerable, i began to feel nonexistent, forgotten, you did to me exactly what he did and  you promised not to from the start. I'm disappointed in myself for actually believing you'd be different.
the bed sheets tangled around our ankles, both legs intertwined, our heads cushioned by pillows, and our hands against each others skin... we will lay in bed for hours avoiding the outside world just to keep this going because laying here, gives each of us a sense of belonging.
pay attention to your dreams.



Wednesday, May 20, 2009

sun burnt noses.






Honestly.

i forgot about this for awhile. for awhile i was happy, enjoying the company of friends and family, resting from long days and enjoying this sunshine. honestly i was so happy i thought for a second i found more than lust, for a second i was the sunshine in somebody's eyes. but the clouds came fast and i was forgotten again, avoided, mislead. and to believe for a second i found respect from someone i reconnected with.  


i truly believe everything happens for a reason i just wish maybe some one would want to soak up my sunshine again and appreciate me. I'm not asking for a lot, just a little love.


 

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

starting


work tomorrow. for the first time in a real job.
 my career how exciting

=) 

ps. i am very happy lately. 

Sunday, May 3, 2009

happiness







last night i found out that i was happy
very happy.