tired.

i have exhausted all of my options and am only left to resolve my issues on my own in silence. 

my dads uncle passed away this weekend the day before my birthday. i should not be upset or sad i was not very close with him. yet im afraid of loosing any thing in life even distant relatives. my fish even died on my birthday. this is really taking a toll on my emotions. 

my thoughts lately are sort of blank. the little things are hurting. 

i need a change and a positive movement to make my skin feel smooth again and my soul revived.